Hello people,
I know I have never been around here for long but today I am
here to tell Goodbye to everybody. Because I am leaving…this life forever. I
have had enough. I never showed my pain or told about how unhappy I am with
myself, with this life. People see me, see my posts and the way I behave and
all and they think how happy I am and that’s true in a way. I have
Alhamdullilah everything I need in life to survive. But is only survival
enough? Is it not about the lifestyle we follow? Let me rephrase. Is it not
about the healthy lifestyle we follow?
Since childhood I have had weight issues. I was always on
the healthier side. But never been unhealthy. I mean in appearance I looked the
chubby chubby bubbly girl but I was always active. I participated in sports,
played all kinds of stuff that involved physical activity. And most importantly
I was happy. Childhood had been awesome. We got to travel a lot. Every three
years we would shift because of my dad’s job. It was nice. Going to some new
place, meeting new people and starting all over again. Then we shifted here, to
Hyderabad. I was happy in the beginning as I always am. It has been almost 10
years now and we are still here. Life is kind of becoming stagnant here. One-
the place is stagnant and other my weight is stagnant and with bonus is un-healthiness
and a jobless life. The thing I am most scared of in life is Stagnancy. And my
life is just that right now.
So yeah… all I am saying is I am no Amitabh Bachchan of “Mohabbatein”
jisko “Parivartan pasand nahi”. I need
parivartan man. I don’t want it but I need it. As oxygen is important to
survive, just like that for me parivartan-The Change is also important. And I don’t
believe I have been living like this from a long time and I did not realise it
too. When I was in college I would think “I’ll be doing this” and “I’ll be
doing that” and that’s what I had thought when I was planning to leave my job.
Now it’s been like more than one week and I am still sitting at home doing nothing
but watching movies all day long and munching on whatever is “edible”. This is
not something I had seen myself doing at this point of my life.
The thing is I love myself. It’s like “Main apni favourite
hun”. I may not be the perfect lady but I truly love myself and I just can’t
see myself being wasted like this. So I have decided it’s high time that I
change. Now I can’t do much about the stagnancy of the place but I can surely
do something which is in my hand. The plan is all set and all I need is some
good luck wishes. Just hope I get what I am looking for. I’ll keep updated
about the plan. Not daily but hopefully it’ll be weekly.
So wish me all the luck in the world.
Till then..Au Revoir
